I Just Feel Happy

September 21 2017

Thinking about the flood and rebuilding, really was the perfect time for that flood happen. It caused so much destruction in my home, physical distraction. Whereas the early parts of this year caused such emotional destruction to me. So here I am finishing up this incredible life-changing trip, going home to rebuild my life. MY LIFE. In the way that I want it to be. I get to rebuild in my house, in the way that I want it to be. It sounds selfish, but it's all about me and what I want.

I really hope my girls can see it. Or maybe they're too young to see it, but I hope they feel it. I hope they feel that their mom is happy. I hope they feel that their mom has more confidence. I hope they feel that their mom is a strong woman. And I hope they one day realize that no matter what happens in their lives, whether it happens to them or for them, that they are so strong and they can handle anything.

I'm ready to be done. I'm ready to stop living out of the van. I'm ready to stop living out of my suitcases. Ready to get back to regular showers; regular life. I'm ready to see my girls. Although once I return, I still have to deal with the flood and the damage that it caused… Buying new appliances and starting to rebuild. Put my insurance claim in. Go to my doctor and ask for an extension on my sickleave. Write a resignation letter. Quit my career. Talk to Jennessa about the job at the salon. Danielle offered me a part-time spot at her store in Windsor-so we can also talk about that.

I'm ready for these changes and ready to embrace what they mean for me.

I just feel happy.