As I reflect on the past 365 days, I can unequivocally say that it was the craziest roller coaster ride I have ever been on, creating the hardest year of my life.

Please don’t choose sides, you can still be friends with both of us. And I was truthful but I think deep down I wanted them to choose ME. Say Fuck that guy, you’re our friend.

Who you hang out with, is who you become.

I'm ready for these changes and ready to embrace what they mean for me. I just feel happy.

The night was perfectly beautiful. We laid a blanket down in the driveway and Bill, Dane and I laid down there, looking at the stars. We were laughing and joking talking about the trip. It was quite literally the perfect way to finish off this trip.

Ottawa, Gatineau & The Pink Lake

I remember my parents saying to me you do not talk to strangers on the Internet. You do not ever ever ever meet anyone from the Internet that you don't know!

He text me about my new nose ring and about other things that he heard from two people and hopes I get my life back on track when I return from this trip… ummmm what??

During the week and during my weekends, I was totally sober. There was never any crossover here; thankfully. But it still was taking its toll on me.

How incredible would it be if we could see the beauty in ourselves, the way we see in others?

Then I shake my head and tell myself NOTHING is wrong with you! You are doing this for you but also for them! You’re going to be a better mom because of this.

I’m 10 years old. No worries, no care in the world. Not been hurt by heart break or stressed by life. I am reading Anne of Green Gables, life is good. While this may not technically be true, my 10 year old and 35 year old self is realizing a life long dream; Prince Edward Island

I’m here to do things to challenge me, for adventure.
Time for you to sail the boat!
What? No, I’m not comfortable with that.
You just told me that you’re here to challenge yourself, discover you and for adventure.
Ok….you’re right. Alright, lets do this!

The Fortress of Louisbourg in Cape Breton was a delightful walk through time

Of course I have moments where I wish him to get stung by a bee (he’s not allergic so I’m not wishing death!) but really….I can’t hold on to anger or hate or hurt, that will be the detriment to ME, not anyone else. But I want him to be truly happy, within and with his life.

To listen to my heart. That even when I don’t think I am a good person, I am. And me, actual me, doesn’t need to apologize for being me.

At first, I took rom this the sometimes even when presented to you, you can’t see the good opportunity you have. But as I was writing, I saw it another way. Maybe, just because a person doesn’t have “it all”, doesn’t mean they need more. Hmmm interesting.