Who Are They To Judge?
September 17, 2017
I left PEI on Confederation Bridge… Which cost $46.50 just across one way! I'm headed towards, Joggins rock. It's way in the bush so I drove into Amherst Nova Scotia. I was gonna sleep in my van but decided to rent a room at a motel I saw… $86 for the night! That works! I went to this really amazing toy store on the island that was actually featured in the movie. The Santa Claus ended up getting a bunch of things for the kids- I got these four fairies, one to represent each of us and I can’t wait to give them to them.
September 18 2017
Talk about lazy! It's almost 10:30 AM and I haven't even left the hotel yet! I decided to stay so I could have a nice shower it's good it's clean and it smells nice which is a bonus! Joggins Rocks is about 25 minutes from where I am and then I start home. I'm thinking I'll drive 67 hours a day and I'll be home by Thursday. Maybe. But the trip is coming to an end and I'm OK and I'm ready.
11:40AM
Dammit! I didn't realize high tide and low tide would affect the exploration of Joggins fossil rocks. So I'm here for at least two hours until the tide is low enough to walk down. Right now it's up to the bottom of the stairs which means I may not make it as far as I was hoping today to get home. The weather is cool and I'm in a T-shirt and jeans and seeming OK. It's cloudy a little breezy but otherwise great weather. I was thinking about this journal and that hopefully years from now, maybe the girls will be able to read it. Or maybe they won't because it's in cursive!
8pm
I stop driving around 7:15 PM as I needed to get gas. Quebec with too far to get to. I'm in Perth New Brunswick and saw sign for the Castle Inn. So I thought why not? Seems like a cool different place. I drive up the mountain a bit and see this gorgeous castle that was actually built as someone's home! It has 14 rooms and all are a different theme and different fees. Luckily she had one for cheap… $119 a night… So I took it. I plan on driving about eight hours to Ottawa tomorrow so I need good rest. I've been feeling so happy, it was bound to happen, my ex-husband text me about my new nose ring and about other things that he heard from two people and hopes I get my life back on track when I return from this trip… ummmm what?? I feel so upset, but mostly because I'm fine! I'm great evening! Excepting my life and settling in. And I don't fit in his box of have a perfect person should be. Guess what he doesn't fit in mine either! Who is here to judge? I am a great person, and amazing mother, a loving and caring friend. I'm quirky and open minded. I'm accepting and wear my heart on my sleeve. My emotions are pretty open and I don't tend to hide very well. I DO NOT NEED SAVING. I'm a grown, responsible person. And what I'm mostly upset about is who are these “two sources”? And why do they feel the need to place themselves in the middle? How dare they? I'm angry at myself for even allowing it to get to me. But how can I not? I feel like so much trust and betrayal has happened this year that I just can't even look at people. Screw this. Sleeping in my castle. Peace out.
